Why Me?

Not sure if it is the time of year or just something that is always in the back of my mind but today it has been weighing so heavy on me. Do you ever wonder why God chose you to have the life you live?

Why do I have wonderful parents that always took care of me? That love me unconditionally? Why do I get to have an awesome husband that loves me the way I am, provides for our family without question or resentment, and is a fantastic dad? Why did God bless me with a beautiful boy to raise as my son? Did he know I would mess up daily? Why is there a perfect little girl I get to call my daughter? What did I do to deserve these blessings?

There are so many other people in this world suffering and have no one to love them or even meet their basic needs. So why did God choose me to live such a blessed life and not them? Something that I will always wonder!

It's been a great day!

Today was the annual livestock clinic that Lonnie puts on for anyone showing pigs, goats, sheep, rabbits, or chickens. He truly is in his element when he is working with new families and teaching them about his passion. I loved watching him talk to them all and teaching those kids about show ethics. When they broke into sessions, Lonnie took the swine kids all over the barn teaching them everything they need to know from unloading to cleaning up at the end of the day. More than anything, I loved seeing Garrett work right along with his dad. Those two worked seamlessly together and seemed to know what the other was thinking before anything was said. It was heart-warming seeing them work together. The sweetest thing was watching Guthri hang on his every word! She stood right next to him and spent most of the morning looking up at him and soaking it all in. Just too sweet!

We came home and just ate a quick lunch and then everyone just retreated into their own rooms and it was such a peaceful afternoon. Watched TV, took a nap, folded a little laundry and that is about it. Great day!

We have a demon in our house!

Now, I normally don't believe in demons, ghosts, paranormal things but I am at the point that I believe that is all it could be. Seriously! You see there are things in our house missing. Completely, 100% missing. They are there one day and gone the next. It is more than the dryer eating the socks. It's earring, necklaces, dishes, hairbrushes, caps, jackets, pens, pencils, bills, food. Just disappears. No one has seen it and no one has touched it. It's just gone. No matter how hard we search things are never found.

Tonight, Guthri and I searched for over an hour for her DS. It is gone! The only answer to the mystery is the demon had to have taken it. What else could it be?

(I am sure you all have the same demon at your house!)

There should be more like him!

You know Lonnie is the quiet type but I am not. He tends to stand back and watch and soak it all in while I jump in with both feet, ready to take the bull by the horns most times. (Ok, you can laugh now because you know it is true.) There are times that his personality can be quite frustrating for some and even make people down right angry. I will admit it has caused quite a few "heated" discussions at our household but in the end I always know he is right.

Lonnie may not be the quickest to react or the loudest one to fight for what he "wants" but I can promise you that he is the honest one, the true one. I can honestly say I have never known him to lie, to cheat, to be dishonest or even to fudge a little. When one of his co-workers retired a few years back she said he was the agent with the most integrity of any agent she had ever worked with. That says a lot. She had once been a district director!

Even though he can frustrate you with his laid back personality you should know that he ALWAYS does what is right for everyone. He never looks out for himself first. NEVER! I am proud to call him my husband and so proud that my kids have such a wonderful example as a father. If there were more men like him in this world life would be so easy!

36.8!!!

I haven't been real open about my weight loss efforts but decided to share anyway. I started Weight Watchers back in June and truly laid off the entire month of August BUT I have lost a total of 36.8 pounds! Woo Hoo....yay for me! Not sure why I decided to even start but the great thing is that I did start and I am actually sticking to it.

For those of you that do not suffer from being over weight or do not understand the frustration of trying to lose weight...count your blessings. I have fought the battle my entire life. One day I was watching my daughter eat MORE than I did and it was an eye opener. She was headed down the same exact path I had walked as a kid and it had to stop. Can't stop someone by words alone so maybe that is why I chose to get the weight off. Don't know. I have committed to getting healthier and to feel better about my appearance. Some days I think my appearance holds me back socially, professionally and even personally. Just time to do something about it.

Well, I said it and now anyone that reads my blog knows and it will probably jinx my efforts! As loud as I can be I truly like to be private about all aspects of my life (unless I choose to share) so this is a big step!

Detour

Today on the way home I had to take a detour off my usual route. As I turned and headed down streets I never even knew existed I saw things I did not want to see in my own town. Houses that looked like shacks, barefoot children in diapers filthy sitting on a broken down porch, cars sitting up on blocks, trash piled 4 or 5 feet tall in the front yard. Just not something I thought about existing in Childress. I know there is poverty here, that is obvious, but the type of poverty is rarely seen. If I had not been in my own car, on my way home, I don't think I would have realized I was in Childress. It was that disturbing.

I passed by an ex-student's house and he was sitting at a broken metal patio table propped up with a stick in an old metal chair seat on a tree stump. He was so engulfed in his school computer that he didn't even notice a car coming down the street. I had been to his house before but had never really noticed his neighborhood. Just made me kind of sick to my stomach. Even though, I was thankful he had the computer and free Internet access, it really means nothing to him. Did he have a clean bed to sleep in? Did he have a bed at all? What was he going to eat for supper? Would there be someone there to fix it? Really hit me hard.

So...as I traveled my detour, I got a whole new "look" at Childress. Not something I was proud to see.

Woo Hoo Guthri!

Well, that little blond headed Dyslexic daughter of mine went and did it! UIL.... Little stink has been so worried about trying out for UIL teams and wanted to do "something" so badly that we spent a few hours in tears last week with me trying to convince her to not try and her trying to figure out what she wanted to try! I just didn't have enough faith!

Last week she tried out for Music Memory (her teacher is the coach) and guess what...she made the top 6. I am so proud of her I could burst. Now, I know most parents are sitting there thinking "so?". But, if you know Guthri you understand. One year ago she could barely read. Two years ago the child would not even look up. Three years ago I drug her to her Kindergarten class screaming at the top of her lungs to just pass her off to the teacher. She has come a long way, baby!!!!!!!!!

Just goes to prove I put limits on everything. She is a dreamer! Love it!