Matters of the Heart

You know, there are so many things going through my mind right now but will refrain from "letting them all out"! There are times in a parents life that you feel helpless, heartbroken, or even down right angry. When it involves your child and their own faults or mistakes you work through it together. You become a stronger parent. BUT, when it involves others who find it necessary to pull and tug on your child's heart or emotions then this mom may just come out fighting. You better just hold on! There is no way I would turn back the clock and become a preteen or teen again for any amount of money. Ggggrrrrrrr! There....I feel better!

Good Morning

It's Saturday morning and I was awakened at 7:00 a.m. by a 9 year old little girl that announces, "Good morning! I'm going to make a surprise for you!" Then leaves the bedroom. Hmmmmm......was my thought but drifted back to sleep. About 5 minutes later, I hear pans clanking in the kitchen. I thought I was dreaming so drifted some more. But very shortly I realize she is in the kitchen COOKING! I hopped out of bed to find a smoking pan, eggs dripping down the cabinet and all over the counter and egg shell in 'the bowl'. All I could think was "come on, it's Saturday and I want to sleep!" She just looks up at me with those innocent eyes and says "I wanted to surprise you and make breakfast for ME." How was I to get mad? Needless to say I cooked her scrambled eggs with ham and cheese, cleaned up the mess and made jello that she requested for later when she wanted a snack. But in the end I was still thinking "come on, it's Saturday and I want to sleep!" :(

Awwwwww....Peace & Quiet

I am sitting in "my chair" with no sound except the ceiling fan in Garrett's room and the heater. How heavenly is this? I had taken today off to see Dr. Green about my mysterious pains and had moved an afternoon hair appointment to the morning. Because of my little episode last week the afternoon Dr. appointment is no longer necessary but the morning hair appointment is quite essential! So, kept my "day off" and I get to enjoy about an hour of peace & quiet. Do you ever get to the point that you just need quiet? I do!!!!! It just puts peace in my soul...no phone....no kids...no TV...just me and my thoughts. I know some day I will miss all the hustle and bustle, the fighting, the complaining, the noise, but for now I am going to soak absolutely nothing in. Have a great day!

50.8 and Counting!

Well, I finally did it. I hit the 50 lb mark (weight LOSS that is). That is a whole sack of feed! OMG.....What was I thinking letting myself get that far out of control? I can't look at the past or mistakes. I have to look forward. I feel so much better and can't wait to feel even better. Maybe it won't take me as long to lose this next 50. Whatever! Just a life process I guess so will just take it as it comes. I CAN DO THIS!
(Just wondering if Dr. Green would believe this excuse??LOL)

Senior Ring :(

Back in September Garrett ordered his senior ring and it about did me in. Well, yesterday that silly ring came in and off the HS we went for a ring ceremony. I really did fine with it because he was so happy. All the Juniors were just all smiles about the adventures before them. It was a very casual ceremony and just a time to recognize the kids and their "new" style. Today, Garrett walks into my classroom wearing that silly ring and my heart sank.

There are days I could kick him straight out on the sidewalk and smile the whole time. Then there are days (like today) that I can't believe this time next year we will be getting ready for graduation. Seems like just yesterday we brought him home from the hospital with a houseful of guest to help us celebrate. He cried all night (colic) and we paced the floor all night just trying to help him. I knew that night he was mine forever. I would give my life to protect him or to make him happy. Garrett has always been special. There is just something about his personality that can grate on you like no other while your heart is melting at the same time.

I guess it is inevitable that he is growing up and soon he will go off to make his place in this world. I just pray for his safety, happiness, and success (just not too far away LOL).

Valentine's Day

Every year Lonnie and Garrett are off at the San Antonio stock show on Valentine's Day. Boooo! This year I thought they were actually going to be home and how fun that was going to be. BUT, NOT, they are leaving on Valentine's Day. Guthri and I are a little bummed! But, we did come up with an early Valentine's idea so tonight we are having dinner at home, we made banana pudding (L's favorite) and maybe will rent a movie. We'll see.

I just have to say that no matter when we celebrate or don't celebrate I am one lucky gal. Lonnie and I have been married for over 20 years and have faced some trials; however, I think we are stronger today, more in love today, better friends today! What a blessing he has been to me. My life would never be what it is today without him.

Hope you have a wonderful Valentine's Day. What are you planning? Just remember that is not the only day to let those you love know how precious they are!

New Character Trait?

I am serious here so read with whatever attitude you want!

I do believe we are all born with character in some form or fashion. It is just one thing that we all have the potential to build or to destroy. However, there is one that as we grow older we completely destroy by our own doing. Have you ever noticed that children can be treated like they are dogs and have no clue? Other kids can just lam-blast them or ridicule them and they just go about their happy lives like nothing ever happened. Now, I know that at times they get upset but in the end everything is good, it is fine, like nothing ever happened. I call this OBLIVIOUSNESS. What a blessing to have. I am serious.

When Garrett was little he was completely oblivious that someone did not like him. I used to feel sorry for him because he had no clue. But later I saw it as a blessing for him. Now part of his obliviousness is ADHD but the other part was just not worrying about what others thought. It really affected him in no way on what you thought. How blessed was he?!

I wish I could be more like that. I wish that I could just be oblivious to others actions, their hateful remarks, their dishonest talk. I guess over the years I have chosen to throw that character trait out the window. Not a good thing. I am working on restoring that trait and I hope you do to!